Letting Go

By: Alice

There is no other way except to be nothing but me and the rabbit hole I am. Just laying it on the table like ‘here’s what I have to offer’ to the collective. Not that I am all high and mighty because we are all equals here in the grand scheme of things and each and every one of us has something to offer to the collective.

Looking back on my life and everything that has led me to where I am today. I have found that if it wasn’t for everything I had been through I wouldn’t be who I am today with an arsenal of skills to take on the endeavor I am embarking on in, tick tock tick tock, 6 months now.

The last road trip Chick and I were on, I found myself looking out the window on the ride back. Thinking, after a long conversation with someone I hadn’t spoke to in almost 3 decades. How everything is so incredibly tied together. That, if my life would have gone another way, I would not be who I am today. Nor be ready for the adventure ahead.

It brings me back to a few of my favorite quotes.

“No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell” - Carl Jung

“Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb, we are bound to others, past and present, and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.” Sonmi 451 - Cloud Atlas <3

Most of my life you could consider was rooted in hell. They say that if you hit rock bottom the upside to that is there is no other way but up.

My so called “hell” did nothing more than prepare me for the road ahead. That regardless of the mistakes I made along the way, I refused to stay down and always get back up. Honestly, I don’t know any other way but to keep getting back up. It’s part of who I am. Though it cost me in some ways, but the gains I am utilizing today from continuing to pivot and step forward regardless of life’s blows, has proven it was undoubtedly all for a purpose.

Life has broke me down and built me back up. Trial after trial, tribulation after tribulation.

The closer we get to the finish line, I am more and more confident and secure that this is exactly where I need to be, with the people I am supposed to be doing it with.

Letting go of the what was and walking in the present.

Knowing the road ahead will too have its challenges, but loving the struggle is key.

It’s about the journey, not the destination.

That whatever we meet on the road, I know without a doubt that Chick and I will take the bulls by the horns, and laugh about how we have met bigger horns.

Our bitter sweet symphony we call our life.

*Tips Hat - Thanking all that have done me wrong, and all those who did me right.

I am absolutely grateful for all the hands of the past that contributed to my creation.

Chick, it’s an absolute honor.

We took a lot on the chin for our age difference and now it’s time to show them why it matters.

Thank you for building me and being crazy enough to join me for the ride of a lifetime.

A vision, only you and I can truly understand the sacrifices made to do it.

Together we ride.

Horizon, here we come.

Much Love and Gratitude 💕

Alice