A day in my head at work…

This was written earlier as part of a previous project -Editor

A day in my head at work…

“A king without a crown is still a king among many, a Lion without a mane will still humble the heart of any man” and “A warrior never lets a warrior lack inspiration.” These lyrics swirl around in my mind as I work, listening to a song over and over because it’s hittin’ nerves, frequency is moving cells, skin, sending electricity, and visions are rolling like waves of the ocean crashing into all my barriers, and washing over me. Tears want to fall, as I know this feeling, I know my cells are being tuned, my body wants to move but I am not in the space for it, but I feel the space is near. It’s coming, and I know what I am going to have to do. I know who I am, who I must become, I can’t fight it anymore, I am accepting, and calling it in now. I have stated in sacred circles with like spirits that “I am here to take my place”, “I am here to remember what I already know”. The words fell out of my mouth and came from a place inside that I have only begun to understand. The visions of all before me, as I am now and ahead of who I am now. Seeing, and connecting everything. My heart breaks simultaneously whilst being filled with so much love and gratitude for each and every sacrifice that has been and that is to come to make me who I am today, and tomorrow, for the path I have to lead. For every person that has borne the weight of my life and helped me carry the load, that has kept secrets, gave me hand up, the ones who wouldn’t let me quit, that gave me words of wisdom, or some of their time. Time, the most valuable and precious gift someone can give. 

I am done hiding, I have always been different, been called crazy, always moved differently amongst the others, seen things different, called a witch since kindergarten, a hippie, a girl with a wild imagination, I have never been like the majority, because I was never meant to be. These labels forced me inside myself for my entire life, my light drained by vampires and other entities of the dark. I’m over it. I embrace the labels now, I don’t need to be like the majority, I don’t need to hide. I am not here for them, I am here for the others. The ones that understand the words I speak, that will resonate with them. The ones that may not know all the minor details of what I speak but know deeply in their depths that this is me calling them out. My prayer, my magic, reaching and weaving through every single connection to find you to find them. You’ll know because you were drawn to read this, it will be the first thing you wake up thinking about, you’ll feel something while reading, you feel a pull, you’ll wake feeling like there is something you need to do, you may not know what but you’ll be lead, ask yourself questions, don’t ignore the signs anymore, all the synchroneities. The call is not to me. The call my loves, is to wake up, rise, battle all those inner demons, make the changes, accept that some will be hard, know you are not alone, follow the breadcrumbs that god/spirit leaves for you, take your place in the world. Step-up to the plate. Give your testimony. Come out of hiding. Accept the gifts given to you, to use here. Stop wasting the time you have borrowed to be here. Forgive, and love, please forgive and love. 

Don’t beat yourself for not being awake sooner, you’re on time, just move forward, but be present. Understand that the life before who you are right now, at this moment was all for you to learn, to analyze, to find your gifts, in all the webs of connections to the others in your life, to teach you, to guide you, even all the dark and ugly things that you have lived through. Forgive, make peace, and move forward. This will take work, but if you feel the pull this isn’t just about you, it’s for all of us. Every single one of us. IT’s all connected, we are all connected. It’s time, my loves. It’s time. When you're ready a teacher will find you. You may even start to recognize the teachers in the webs of your past. It’s all there. Connect the dots, just like a kid in grade school. Connect the dots, find all the similarities, open your eyes to all the patterns, take care of your body so you can feel the vibrations, the light of others and god/spirit. Fine tune your intuition and trust it. Find your truth, and for the sake of yourself and all the others, LIVE it. Live your truth. Keep a dream journal. So many people take their dreams for granted or write off as weird or bizarre happenings. Oh my sweets these are valuable tidbits of vital information being transmitted to you through metaphor. There is so much to learn and understand from them. Research, the information and translations are everywhere. You have to be honest with yourself, and take accountability for yourself and your actions, have an open mind, and pay attention to the electricity, vibrations, feelings of warmth, that wash over you. This is how you know when something resonates. Or you’ll simply just know. But don’t over analyze, don’t over complicate it with the human brain, think with your heart and spirit, and then listen to the messages coming in. Make the changes. Take the warnings, this takes lots of practice, and there are tons of books on it. Some written by people who kept dream journals for over 20 years that can back all I am speaking of. Me reading their work/studies was only validation, something I have always done naturally since I was a little girl. Part of my lessons here were to trust myself and learn that I am not crazy. It took me almost 40 years, but there is a reason the Elders made the decisions in sacred tribes. It takes time, experience, and fine tuning. Learn, and research. When you see or read something, don’t take their word for it, research and listen to spirit, listen with your heart, your body.  Your body is a lie detector. Wake up, breathe and FEEL everything that is around you, inside of you. My brothers, my sisters, all the warriors, hear your call. Raise your heads, remember what you already know and why you are here. Shhhh, and listen, my sweets, my loves, because we need you now. 

Lyrics I quoted above are in the song below. Enjoy! Mwahs!

With so much love and gratitude, that I cannot even ever be able to describe it in words. Thank you, thank you.