Kevin? Who The Fuck is Kevin?

I have an earlier blog that dives into the basics and touches base on the what, when, where, why etc. But I'm looking to do a bit of a deeper dive on this one. As I stated in my earlier blog, I have always been drawn to help others. Always willing to give as much as I could (sometimes too much) to help others be successful. I have always felt the call to do this. Even as a child I was always quick to help those in need and give what of my self I could. Well over the 40 years of my life, I have given so much that a few years back I realized I was never getting back. I was just the give, give, give, person. Now I don't ask for much, I don't expect anything from anyone, I just do what I feel needs to be done and move on down the road. When the opportunity to help with the dream of Clearview Works was proposed to me by the woman you know as Alice came up, of course

I wanted to help. I have known her for the better part of a decade. We have talked about bits and pieces of everything here and there as we worked and I had been intrigued. Now some may ask "well if you just said you were the give, give, give, guy why is this any different? Aren’t you just repeating the pattern?" Well let me get into that a bit.

The idea of Clearview Works is a place to bring light to issues people don't want to talk about in reference to trauma, pain, and the demons each and everyone of us faces. As I dug deeper into the dream and goal, I quickly found a place for me. Running through the old documents for the greenhouse, the paths and challenges that were faced to get the information, the way my brain absorbed all of it and in many cases made quick work of the little problems and challenges faced by the way things were written or described. My mind for puzzles and decoding was definitely a good fit. Well not only was I beginning to help with getting things started and getting an understanding of the information, but I also started to realize that I wasn't just giving. I was also receiving. I was taking in the information and the long conversations about the goal and dreams as well as the friendship with Alice, and actually finding meaning in it. Understanding that I too was hiding behind many things. This was one of the big catalysts to my healing journey.

Realizing that not only can I give to something but with the right understanding I can learn and heal from it and the messages it contained. This drew me in even more. Walking the path that I was helping others walk has been no easy feat. Trips and falls, bumps, rough roads, lots of breaking down to be rebuilt. It's all lead me down a path to be a better version of me. Now back to where I fit in. As I stated I love a good challenge, I love helping others, and I love working towards a goal and getting tasks done. Clearview Works fills all those rolls. It feeds me in ways I didn't think something could. The friendships formed, the drive to make a dream a reality, the excitement of things moving along and getting to where we want them, the finding solutions to what seem like impossible tasks. All of it feeds my heart, my mind, and my soul.

Where do I see my self in this rag tag band of dreamers? I see myself not as a leader, not as a follower or worker bee, I see myself as a member of a team of equals. There is give and take on all levels and in all aspects. We all tackle this together. At times I need to step in and move things in certain directions to ensure things get completed, but all good teams need a nudge or bump here and there. I see the future of Clearview works as a bright one. A way to tap into many hidden resources and people to help bring light to the darkness.